Times Change
Written by Rachel, Posted in Thoughts
It has been a year of changes. I’m not ready to say that they’ve all been for the better. Not yet. But, I have hope that they will someday represent a time of growth and even encouragement.
Change can be confusing. I’ve felt lost through a lot of it. I’d thought one thing for so long, only to discover that it’s not a possibility anymore. Maybe it never was. Maybe it is, but looks different than I thought it would. It changes a person. It’s changed me… Is changing me.
Food, something that I’ve loved for so long, became more of a necessity than a joy for a while. It was thrown together instead of lovingly created. I get why people eat boxed meals and fast food. I was tired at the end of the day. I wanted to eat and relax a bit before going to sleep so I could do it all over again. It brought me a greater understanding of regular folks. It was a luxury, the way I got to cook before. I had a good thing going. I won’t pretend to understand why it ended. I still harbor a bit of frustration and bitterness about that. But there have been lessons learned and maybe someday the bitter will become sweet.
That was one thing that changed.
The rest, either I don’t need to go into detail about, or I’m not ready to. At least not on here. Since it’s been like six months since I last posted, I’m confident there are two people still reading. You’re probably friends of mine and know what’s going on anyways. If you’re still here, thanks for reading. I have hopes and plans for this little corner of the interweb. It might look a little bit different than it used to. But, it will still just be tales from the life of Rachel O.
Love you, my friend!
I missed this blog and your words on it!! Love you girl. Thanks for sharing 🙂
Hey Old Friend,
Sounds like you have been through a whirlwind since we last spoke. I hope you can continue hang in there until the dust settles. I appreciate your candor and honesty about the difficulty of dealing with change. In this day and age it is too easy to only share the good events and analyze/mourn our pitfalls privately. We need to remember that sharing with others can help the healing process and give us more perspective. Enjoy your fabulous roadtrip and the new adventures to come. And when and if you return to this blog, we will be ready to read your wonderful words again.
Love
Sarah
Thanks Christy! Love you!
Thanks Jo!! Love you!
Hey Sarah! Yes, lots of changes! You’re so right. We hide the difficult and only show what looks nice and is easy to look at. I’m trying to do a bit less of that, in an effort to be more vulnerable.